God says to me through the Prophet Isaiah 44:2a in the Torah: "I am your Creator. You were in my care even before you were born". Wow!, how wonderful it is to know that my birth was not a mistake! My mother wanted a baby boy, so when I was born, I was a disappointment for her. And from that day onwards I was forgotten... no hugs, no kisses, no sitting on her lap, no hearing "I love you"... I was abandoned at birth... I was a child in the family who never had a family... I grew up alone, with no identity, thinking that I was a mistake and, therefore, guilty of something I did not know what it was. Until today, I wondered why I was alive. I could not see any meaning for my existence. Amazingly, reading chapter 2 of my book today, God is telling me clearly, that regardless of my parents wanting me or not, were good or not, I was emotionally abandoned or not, God had a plan in creating me. Lovingly He was taking care of me even before I was born. This fills my heart with so much joy and my life becomes so meaningful!
Looking into my past, I can see I am a living proof of His love and care. I would not have made it if this was not a reality. I moved from Mozambique to Portugal, which was a kind of foreign country for me, with no family, no friends, no job, no place to live and I had 2 beautiful girls to raise up. Looking back to those times I can see God walking along with me, taking care of the three of us in such a marvelous way, providing for us and blessing our simple life, giving us a stable future. My girls are now married and they gave me five beautiful grandchildren. They are a joy to my heart, and I feel so grateful for God's continuous blessing and care my family and me.
Today, I understand that God does not create me accidently, He never makes mistakes! I was not the child parents planned and wanted, but I was not unplanned and unwanted by God. He has a reason for everything He creates. I was created with a purpose in His mind. His amazing motive to create me is His love. In the New Testament/Injil, epistle to the Ephesians 1:4 says: "Long before he laid the foundations, he had us in mind, had settled on us as the focus of his love". I, and all Humanity, was in God's mind even before He created the whole World. Actually He created the Earth for all of us. We are the focus of His love and the most valuable of His creation! In the New Testament/Injil, Book of James 1:18, it says: "God decided to give us life through the word of truth so we might be the most important thing of all things he made" Wow! this is how much God loves and values me! He created me so He could love me! How wonderful is this truth to build my life on! I am feeling so humbled and overwhelmed by gratitude and excitement!
"God is love." says the New Testament/Injil, first book of John 4:8. Love is the essence of His character. He created me in order to express His love! In the Torah, Prophet Isaiah 46:3-4, it says: "I have carried you since you were born; I have taken care of you from your birth. Even when you are old, I will be the same. Even when your hair has turned gray, I will take care of yo. I made you and I will take care of you". How great is my God/Allah Akbar!
God made me for a reason, and my life has a profound meaning! I am discovering that meaning and purpose only after I started making God the reference point of my life. The New Testament/Injil, epistle to the Romans 12:3, says: "The only accurate way to understand ourselves is by what God is and by what he does for us."
In my heart and mind, I wondered many times "Who am I, to deserve so much love?" I have my answer now "God created me because He loves me. He wants to have an intimate relationship with me, He wants to walk with me everyday, laugh with me, dry my tears, hug me in moments of crushing anguish, heal me in my depression, look into my eyes and see my soul overflowing with His peace, His joy, and His love. My Father in Heaven, Today I come to you empty asking You to fill me with the wonderful presence of Your spirit to guide me. I want to follow the path you have planned for me so that I can walk in the straight path that leads me to You and to an eternal life in Your presence.
God made me for a reason, and my life has a profound meaning! I am discovering that meaning and purpose only after I started making God the reference point of my life. The New Testament/Injil, epistle to the Romans 12:3, says: "The only accurate way to understand ourselves is by what God is and by what he does for us."
In my heart and mind, I wondered many times "Who am I, to deserve so much love?" I have my answer now "God created me because He loves me. He wants to have an intimate relationship with me, He wants to walk with me everyday, laugh with me, dry my tears, hug me in moments of crushing anguish, heal me in my depression, look into my eyes and see my soul overflowing with His peace, His joy, and His love. My Father in Heaven, Today I come to you empty asking You to fill me with the wonderful presence of Your spirit to guide me. I want to follow the path you have planned for me so that I can walk in the straight path that leads me to You and to an eternal life in Your presence.
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